When my grandpa passed away, I needed the support I must have to communicate the many feelings I was experiencing, but there was no one that could step in to support me during this tragic time. My mom needed to support many others – including herself – and went home. Some of my challenges have found a way to diminish over the years, but I see now that doing it on my own does not work so well.
A lot of my hard work becomes obsolete without rich support. I have to make it clear, many of my dad’s great family members stepped up to the plate to try, but I needed more. Their help was much appreciated, but I was in my own silent world throughout the time my mom was away. This did not help my hard to feel intense sadness dissipate. When I have no ability to say what I have to say, then days are the hardest.
The things that I so much needed to say must be said now. Hard to find the words that I have to get out, but so much has happened in my life because of my grandpa’s love for me. He was in my life from the start and I loved him deeply. Our family will not be the same without him. I miss him.