When my grandpa passed away, I needed the support I must have to communicate the many feelings I was experiencing, but there was no one that could step in to support me during this tragic time. My mom needed to support many others – including herself – and went home. Some of my challenges have found a way to diminish over the years, but I see now that doing it on my own does not work so well.
A lot of my hard work becomes obsolete without rich support. I have to make it clear, many of my dad’s great family members stepped up to the plate to try, but I needed more. Their help was much appreciated, but I was in my own silent world throughout the time my mom was away. This did not help my hard to feel intense sadness dissipate. When I have no ability to say what I have to say, then days are the hardest.
The things that I so much needed to say must be said now. Hard to find the words that I have to get out, but so much has happened in my life because of my grandpa’s love for me. He was in my life from the start and I loved him deeply. Our family will not be the same without him. I miss him.
Graciela, I am deeply saddened to hear of your loss and the pain it caused, especially the extra pain of not being able to share it and be comforted. I read about death that grief is love with no where to go. It sounds like that is true for your love and your heart. And you’re right. We need more family and friends to learn the boards.
Graciela- I am so sorry to learn of the loss of your beloved grandfather. Elise and I will be praying for you and your family.
I’m so sorry you lost your Grandpa. ❤️And I’m sorry that loss was made more difficult because of the challenge to communicate your feelings.